Okay so I'm NEW here. Yeah? Yeah.

Anyways I just wanted to make a random blog that I know no one is going to read but fudge it. :)

So what should I talk about???

Oh I got one!

CHUCK PALAHNIUK
 Now if you don't know who this great man of words than you should go kill yourself. I'm serious just go!

TeeHee

Don't who else is going to read this?

Anyways...
If you don't know who he is he's the guy who wrote Fight Club. Now if you don't know what that is than put down your fingering (hehe fingering) copy of Twilight and read something real. Open your eyes to some real literature.

Chuck's book are so fucked up and crazy it blows my mind. I hope I could put in a different way but I'm 14 and like I don't any better than that because he does blow my mind. He makes me see the world in a different light. Not the best light  but a more realistic light. Do you understanding what I'm saying? I hope so! Anyways He makes he see the world as just one big mind fuck. I have can to realize that this world that we live in is just really really f-ed up. Which is okay because like I'm not going to die soon so I have to live here. It's sad really.

Anyways My whole point is that Chuck Palahniuk is amazing and I think everyone should read his books.

My favorite book is Invisible Monsters. Great Book.

Title: Comfortably Numb
Author: ME! ME! ME!
Pairing:Whoever
POV: First Person
Summary:I feel the cold metal razor against my bare skin.
Disclaimer: Not my song.
Author Notes: Be nice. I try my best. I think I need a beta:) Oh and how the fuck do I make this smaller? And do that thingy.

Hello?
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone at home?
Come on, now,
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I'll need some information first.
Just the basic facts.
Can you show me where it hurts?

I feel the cold metal razor against my bare skin. I smile knowing that this pain I feel will soon be over. I know your be better off with out me here. I know that you love her more than I, the one you used to call 'baby'. I know now that  was a lie. A big fucking lie! I now know that you never loved me and you never will.
.

The blood pours out of my veins slowly. I feel nothing. I am numb.


There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain you would not understand
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Before I die here on this cold hard bathroom, I try to think of the good times. Me and you. When I  thought you loved me.

I remember.... 

The first time you kissed me in my room that night and said  you felt the same. The first you were inside of me. The first time you said 'I love you'.

All lies.

I wonder that at any point in are relationship when you really did love. Maybe you did or maybe that's just wishful thinking. I'm not sure anymore. I'm not sure about anything anymore. I laugh at the person I am now. A year ago I was a love life guy. I would smile at the time. People used to tell me I had a wonderful smile. Now people tell me 'You need to smile a more kid-o'.

I feel hot tears rolling down my face. I can't feel anything anymore. I smile at this fact.

O.K.
Just a little pinprick.
There'll be no more aaaaaaaaah!
But you may feel a little sick.
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working, good.
That'll keep you going through the show
Come on it's time to go.


I hear footsteps. They are coming my way. They bang on the door. It's you. I laugh knowing I will be gone any minute now. Your too last. You say 'open the door!' . Your voice in a panic tone. I laugh. You open the door. Fuck! I forgot about the fucking key. Anyway it's too last and you know it. You run over to me and knee down. You have me in your arms now. Your covered in blood. My blood. You take my hand and put it against your face. Your saying things but I can't make them out. Your crying. I smile. You kiss me. You kiss me with so more passion it hurts. I smile and say 'I love you'. You cry even more and try your best to smile. I close my eyes.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb